Month: February 2021

*This was written over 2 days, I almost erased the first part but kept it. Try to pretend it’s all one day haha. Today is Bob’s 37th birthday! Which means this year I am also turning 37 years old and that’s too damn close to 40 for my comfort. Bob died when he was 35,… Continue reading 37 long almost years

There's a place in the oceans where boats would get stuck, because there's no wind to fill the sails. That's how I feel about February. Today, this very moment, I hate February. It's cold. It's dark. It's fucking cold. The "new year" excitement has worn off and spring isn't yet in sight. It's when all… Continue reading Doldrums

I always feel like I’m the last to know things. I’ve always been on the tail end (or a few months over) fashion trends. I’m always coming into a series later than everyone else. Well, today I introduced myself to a new thing, and I’M NEVER GOING BACK. I’m talking about space bags. The bags… Continue reading Space bags

I made a mom friend through Facebook. I put out an all-points bulletin looking for friends on a parenting page, and we clicked. Her husband has stage 4 pancreatic cancer, and we clicked on the similarities of our situations (her kids are a bit older than mine) and we have similar kinds of humor. Her… Continue reading It’ll all be okay, it’s just not okay right now.

In January 2019 Bob started brain radiation immediately after New Year’s. And then the kids were sick. And I was working full time. And Bob couldn’t drive (because, you know, brain radiation!). And the kids were sick again. And also still working. 2 years feels like yesterday feels like 10 years ago feels like tomorrow… Continue reading Anxiety vs Mom vs Snow