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One of the big parts of someone dying is the question of what to do with all their stuff. The things that defined their life. The things that can trigger memories no matter how big or small they are. Some, like jewelry, can be passed down to children or grandchildren. Sometimes there is money involved.… Continue reading What we hold on to

I always think back to when Char was Paige's age. The reading of books, the going places. The coloring and play doh. The being outside in the snow, the playing with Orion. I think back and fondly remember, and then wonder why it's not the same anymore. The answer was staring me in the face.… Continue reading When there were two of us

Happy Holidays! The holidays are obviously different in every family, and that’s okay. Not celebrating the holidays at all is also okay. I’ve been in a “funk” lately where I have absolutely no desire to write, and me being me, I wanted to know why? What was wrong with me? Why can’t I bounce back… Continue reading It all takes time

A friend of mine asked me this morning if I'm ever going back to work, and it's not the first time I've had the question. I've worked in some kind of job since I was 13, so it's not like I'm averse to having a job. I quit my job in January so I could… Continue reading Yes! No… Maybe?

I wrote a while ago that I was starting to cook more because I missed good food. But I am coming to terms lately (or trying to) that I can't go crazy with meals until the kids are older. Let me explain that my kids aren't really picky eaters. They have their favorites, and Char… Continue reading Food Stories

A lot of times I need validation in what I’m doing. I try to get it internally, like “good for me!” but I value it more from other people. Specific people. One person. But that person is gone, so now I’m back to internal and other people. Follow me on this, as I read that… Continue reading You’re on the right track

There are two things you need to come to terms with when you have cancer, or when your spouse has cancer- mortality and preparation. Everything about your life will change. Some of it can be positive. A lot will be negative. The bubble around your life and your family you didn't know was there is… Continue reading All the prep you can manage

For the first time in a long time I have therapy homework. It's been a while. It's to repeat this new mantra to myself: "get rid of the judgement." It might seem easy. I might pass it off as done and done, but there is no harder person on me than myself. And as hard… Continue reading Get rid of the Judgement

Let me start by telling you that I love dark green cars. I think they are snazzy, they look really pretty, and I just love them. But I am not allowed to own one. My first cars were green, and one way or another they all wrecked. My last one I owned for a total… Continue reading Green Cars vs Blue Cars

There's no running from grief, but you don't always need to "face it head on." There are times when you just need a break. That doesn't mean you aren't acknowledging what happened anymore, you just need a break. I have been in that break space for a bit now. A week? Two? A few days?… Continue reading Photo Printing