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I made a mom friend through Facebook. I put out an all-points bulletin looking for friends on a parenting page, and we clicked. Her husband has stage 4 pancreatic cancer, and we clicked on the similarities of our situations (her kids are a bit older than mine) and we have similar kinds of humor. Her… Continue reading It’ll all be okay, it’s just not okay right now.

In January 2019 Bob started brain radiation immediately after New Year’s. And then the kids were sick. And I was working full time. And Bob couldn’t drive (because, you know, brain radiation!). And the kids were sick again. And also still working. 2 years feels like yesterday feels like 10 years ago feels like tomorrow… Continue reading Anxiety vs Mom vs Snow

I see my resolve to blog once a week has gotten away from me. Life, man. But here we are! Everyone is excited it's Friday. There's more snow on the ground. I have a puppy visit scheduled for next week with a friend of mine. All is well! More or less. I have officially been… Continue reading Back on track… it may wind around, but it’s a track

If you are not outraged by the events of today, January 6th, in Washington D.C. then I don’t recognize you. And I’m not solely talking about the mob. As spoken by my favorite Major Garret from CBS News, wearing a flag doesn’t make you a patriot. I’m talking about the lack of police force. The… Continue reading State of Affairs

Guys. Guys! This is blog #100! Never in my wildest dreams did I think this blog would continue as long as it has with no end game in site. It just keeps going, with all the best and worst. All the drama and feelings. All the crazy kid stories and grief wading. I don't feel… Continue reading Simplicity/Blog 100!

As my children are shrieking playing in Paige’s room, I try not to care. As my children want to make each other laugh instead of eat, and I’m finished with my own food, I try not to care. When they cry as I tell them to get down from the table because they aren’t eating… Continue reading Fun Killer

Fifteen years is such a long time and yet feels like it was only a few years ago. I can't say it feels like yesterday because I am a completely different person; we all were different people back then. I was a senior in college and I was in my parents' home in Amsterdam, NY.… Continue reading New Year’s Eve 2005

It started with quitting my job. Focusing on school and writing my blog. There was a contagion spreading, first from China then Italy, We didn’t really listen, spring was coming officially. The winter had been dark, with small patches of light. The first alone holidays and birthdays continued in a steady march. Then would come… Continue reading What 2020 was to me

The girls see a lot of people in a wierd childcare and school bubble. Teachers, friends, bus driver... Who do I see on a semi-now-regular basis? My therapist. That’s it. Thanks corona virus. I was never really that social, especially without Bob, but damn Covid. Let my friends come over. Can my mom visit? Can… Continue reading Single mom, widow mom, who do you see?

There is one big Christmas tradition we have in our house that's uniquely our own. In our apartment Bob would lament that I really only decorated in one room of the house- the living room with the tiny tree. To fix this problem he took the assortment of small stuffed bears I had been given… Continue reading Changing Traditions