Happy Holidays! The holidays are obviously different in every family, and that’s okay. Not celebrating the holidays at all is also okay. I’ve been in a “funk” lately where I have absolutely no desire to write, and me being me, I wanted to know why? What was wrong with me? Why can’t I bounce back… Continue reading It all takes time
Yes! No… Maybe?
A friend of mine asked me this morning if I'm ever going back to work, and it's not the first time I've had the question. I've worked in some kind of job since I was 13, so it's not like I'm averse to having a job. I quit my job in January so I could… Continue reading Yes! No… Maybe?
Food Stories
I wrote a while ago that I was starting to cook more because I missed good food. But I am coming to terms lately (or trying to) that I can't go crazy with meals until the kids are older. Let me explain that my kids aren't really picky eaters. They have their favorites, and Char… Continue reading Food Stories
You’re on the right track
A lot of times I need validation in what I’m doing. I try to get it internally, like “good for me!” but I value it more from other people. Specific people. One person. But that person is gone, so now I’m back to internal and other people. Follow me on this, as I read that… Continue reading You’re on the right track
All the prep you can manage
There are two things you need to come to terms with when you have cancer, or when your spouse has cancer- mortality and preparation. Everything about your life will change. Some of it can be positive. A lot will be negative. The bubble around your life and your family you didn't know was there is… Continue reading All the prep you can manage
Get rid of the Judgement
For the first time in a long time I have therapy homework. It's been a while. It's to repeat this new mantra to myself: "get rid of the judgement." It might seem easy. I might pass it off as done and done, but there is no harder person on me than myself. And as hard… Continue reading Get rid of the Judgement
Green Cars vs Blue Cars
Let me start by telling you that I love dark green cars. I think they are snazzy, they look really pretty, and I just love them. But I am not allowed to own one. My first cars were green, and one way or another they all wrecked. My last one I owned for a total… Continue reading Green Cars vs Blue Cars
Photo Printing
There's no running from grief, but you don't always need to "face it head on." There are times when you just need a break. That doesn't mean you aren't acknowledging what happened anymore, you just need a break. I have been in that break space for a bit now. A week? Two? A few days?… Continue reading Photo Printing
Edie’s Burial
I've dealt with a lot of misconceptions about grief. Some of them are what I've noticed in others over the years. Some I didn't know about at all. Some I learned from TV, books, life in general. But I was wrong. I knew some things about grief, but it doesn't "look" a certain way. Case… Continue reading Edie’s Burial
He’s not coming home
So I bought a new fridge. No, my old one wasn't dying. No, nothing was "wrong" with it. But I fought with that side-by-side fridge for the last year and I was sick of it. So when I randomly went to Lowe's to replace my screen door and was walking around, I found this fridge… Continue reading He’s not coming home