“Am I on the schedule today?” I text the two men who own the housekeeping business I’ve used for the last 2 years. “Yup,” one texts back. “Excellent! The girls have a half day so EVERYONE will be around,” I respond. I am also watching our neighbors daughter until she’s done with work. 3 girls,… Continue reading Lucky.
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Valentines
“What did you an Bob do for Valentine’s Day?” my friend asked as we sat on opposite sides of her couch facing each other. I shook my head. “Not a lot… we would make dinner- correction, he would make dinner, and he’d always find me purple tulips.” I smiled. I never knew how he found… Continue reading Valentines
My Voice
I am a mom of children who were small and are constantly growing and pushing the boundaries of what I want to control. I am a widow of a man who died of cancer before we were old. I was a wife who always doubted her ability to be a "good wife" because I would… Continue reading My Voice
Crisis in Identity- Guilt
If I could start over, I would have had that 2nd cup of coffee at 2 p.m. when I went to pick up the dog from puppy daycare. If I could be guaranteed a caffeine boost at 4 p.m. when the kids came home then maybe, just maybe, I'd have the energy to make dinner.… Continue reading Crisis in Identity- Guilt
Based on “Warning” by Jenny Joseph
How do I feel closer to 40 than I felt last year, how does a year make such a difference? When did I get old? I am forever older than Bob, my husband that was born months before me. I am still on the younger side of my friends. Mom turns 60 (spoilers, sorry mom)… Continue reading Based on “Warning” by Jenny Joseph
It started with back pain…
Disclaimer: this is from a writing class, edited versions might show up later. "It started with back pain." How many times have I started with that line? How many times have I thought it? How many times did I fight with the doctors- no, you're wrong, it's just a pulled muscle! "No," they said again… Continue reading It started with back pain…
He’s not coming home
So I bought a new fridge. No, my old one wasn't dying. No, nothing was "wrong" with it. But I fought with that side-by-side fridge for the last year and I was sick of it. So when I randomly went to Lowe's to replace my screen door and was walking around, I found this fridge… Continue reading He’s not coming home
Weight
There’s a lot that goes on in a woman’s mind on any given day. (I’m sure there are also many things in men’s heads too, but since I’m not a man I’ll stick to women.) Add onto that being a widow and constantly trying to “manage” your grief, which can’t be managed FYI. Add on… Continue reading Weight
Adaptation
Here we are guys, on... Saturday? My phone tells me it's Saturday so it must be true. Thank goodness this isn't a "true" apocalypse and we seem to have the internet. Communication at it's finest... it makes me think maybe I should get a landline phone... So what is quarantine for the girls and I?… Continue reading Adaptation
Finding Normal
I've been struggling the last few days to figure how to say what I want to talk about, with regards to the new year and current life choices I'm making. This year will be very different from others for me in obvious ways. I've come to realize I'm not a single mom- I'm a widowed… Continue reading Finding Normal
Solo Mom of Tiny & Loud Dragons 